The Keen Klan

School

2010-05-20T10:29:00.001-06:00

Well the kids only have a week left in school and then it will be summer. We are trying to get a plan for the summer that includes some school work to help the kids learn more or at least not lose anything this summer. E is working hard and is gone 14 days at work, but it is a job and I am grateful for that. J had to do an 1860's dress for history and I think she did great. Her teacher was impressed so we will see what kind of grade she get for all her hard work.
I have decided that I need to work harder on some things in my life, so I will be trying to do that this summer as well.

"Kids will be kids"

2010-01-14T10:38:00.003-07:00

Sometimes I wonder if anyone else out there has kids like mine? The other day JM painted the walls and outlets in his room with poop, this isn't the first time not even the second time it has happened a lot and he isn’t the only one to have done this.

Can boys be "drama kings" and be even more dramatic then girls? I have one that thinks the world is ending when he is told "no" if something doesn't happen the way he wants it to. My girls are very much "drama queens" and he can put them to shame. I don't really like drama and I live in it day in and day out.

I have read several parenting books and so much of that stuff just doesn't seem to work on my kids, yeah they "do their time" or what ever the consequence might be but then they go right back out there and do the same thing over and over as soon as their time is done.

Some of the time their play together well with no problems at all.

How do I parent right? Is there a way to do it and have great, positive and happy children? I am sure that there is I just have to figure it out and hope I haven't messed them up so bad while I do!

Teeth, Sick and Life

2009-10-31T12:45:00.001-06:00

D is cutting teeth and he is having a hard time with it and so am I. I have never had a baby who hurt so much cutting teeth and it takes him about 5 days to break them through. He is up every two hours (kind of like having a new born again only crying in pain) Maybe he is going to be like me and do things the hard way. I hope for his sake he isn't.

I am trying to keep it together and I am not doing so good on a lot of things. My family deserves so much better, I have got to pull myself together.

The Kids are doing well R is over the croup, we spent two hour in the ER and they had to give her a steroid shop sp she could breath. Grace no longer has a fever and her cough is all gone. The rest thank heavens have been healthy.

Still trying to figure out if we need to move, if E can do better in a different field or not some where else. But this is my home and I an just not sure what to do. He has given up so much for me; his family for the most part are in Canada. I don't really like the cold, but none of the kids or I do well in the heat. This is where most of my family is and I have spent the last 22 year right here.

Do you work for the things you want or be grateful for what you have?

Do you better yourself and fix what’s broken because everyone around you deserves that or because you know it is time?

Maybe the answer to those question is both.

2009-09-06T18:16:00.016-06:00

Well School has started and I have 4 out of 6 in school. L and R are only 1/2 day, But they love school. They will start to ride the bus on Tuesday. That means that I can put JM down for a nap after lunch instead of after taking them to school.

D has decided to fight sleep and has only been going to sleep during the day when he is soo exhausted that he can't fight it any more, but he only sleeps for 30 minutes. He is also siting on his own and is starting to baby crawl as apposed to his army crawl that he has been doing.

E will be working 6 day on at what they call man camp and will be staying there the hole time. We see how well we handle this.

Yesterday 4 of us got hair cuts E, L, R, and JM. J cut dad's hair.

Well life is going on and on around here we are working on having a yard sale. I am just not sure that it is worth all the effort. I am about ready to just give it all the the "good will" and be done with it.

Cookie-cutters or not?

2009-04-02T14:29:00.011-06:00

People say I make cookie-cutter kids, that they all look alike. Do you think so?

This is one and a half to two years old Who's who?

This is six months to one year.

They are all about two weeks old.

Just days old, Who's who?

I think all my kids look different. There are some similarities but that are not copies at least to me. I think that G and L come the closest to looking a like

D S

2009-04-02T10:00:00.006-06:00

Born Febuary 5 2009

Weight 6lb 4oz

He spent the first three weeks of his life at Grandma and Grandpa Wolfe's

Mommy spent her time there to be helped and care for and taken care of.

Some picture with Grandma and Grandpa about 6 weeks after D's birth and right before grandma, grandpa and Lil when back home. Thank you for all the help!

Life keeps going

2009-04-02T09:45:00.003-06:00

Well I know that it has been a while and I am sorry. Recovering from an emergency caesarian isn’t the easiest thing to do, thank goodness I had a lot of help. Grandma K came down and stayed for three weeks and took care of everyone and while she was doing that, if that wasn’t hard enough as is, all my kids were sick to with strep and influenza A. I think that she has earned her golden wings just for that. Then Lil came and stayed for two weeks and help me get back into the swing of things.

Well we will be blessing our lil D on the 19 of April. He is growing soo big. I don’t think any of my children have grown this fast and I would like for him to slow down a little. He is already sleeping through the night and not just 5 hours but 7 to 9 hours. He weights 10+ lbs and I need to get out the three month clothing.

Well I have lots to do, you know all that house work that you have to do every day cause you have lil kids and it never stays done, so I am going to post this and I will try to keep up better.

Just another day

2009-01-29T10:46:00.003-07:00

Well , G is now 6, R is 3, and L just turned 4. It was pretty interesting there for about three and one half weeks I had two 3 year old, that's what happens when they are only 11 months apart.

We are all sitting around awaiting the arrival of our newest baby. The kids even ask Heavenly Father to make the baby come out of mommies tummy, I think everyone is done waiting!

We have had beautiful snow on the ground until this last week, it has been raining and the snow is gone.

J is learning to crochet and is doing well in school. G is learning to read and spell thing, she will say "M O M or D A D " and we will spell her name back at here. She is writing letter to everyone she can think of. L is having fun at school and like all his little friends. R wants to go to school, but she just gets to walk the other kids to the bus and come home to take a nap. JM is working very hard at being as big as his siblings.

E is working 6 days a week with 3 off and it doesn't look like Halliburton is doing lay offs. I just pray that it will stay that way. He has had a tooth problem for those who know about is root canal, it went bad and had to be taken out. There was infection and he is now waiting the 6 months for everything to heal so it can be finished.

Well that's all I can think of for now and I need to start lunch so kids can be done and all cleaned up and ready to go when the bus comes. I hope that everyone is doing well.

Christmas Letter

2008-12-12T16:56:00.004-07:00

G 5 3/4

L 3 3/4

R 2 3/4

JM 16 months

E left work at the end of May, and went to EMT school. He did great. He was top in his class and did so well on all his work. He became certified in early September. He hasn’t been able to find a job in that field and has decided to go to Nursing School. Now he is in the process of finding a job so we can save money so he can go to school and not have to work. We have been told that it is impossible to work and do school, you just can't do both. I just don't understand why no one has hired him yet. He is a very hard worker and learns fast and is honest and dependable. He has been working on the house for the last few months and it is looking beautiful. We moved the laundry area out of the kitchen and E build me a laundry area and a coat closet and a shelf reliance closet. We have all new counter tops and cabinets and floor in the kitchen. New flooring and light in the dining room. We just need to do the finish work two doors and trim mostly. E says that always takes the longest to do or at least for us it does.

J is on the Honor Roll again and she is now playing to flute and the violin. She asked us if she can have a cello too. She is teaching her self the piano. She has been making jewelry to give to her friends for their birthdays. She is just having a hard time getting organized.

G is doing wonderful in kindergarten and is friends with every one. She is learning how to sound out words and read, we are so proud of her. She is growing into a good big sister. G is always creating picture and projects that she brings home, she is very creative.

L is loving PreK, it did take him a little while to get adjusted to the rules and some other things. He is very determined and head strong, but is doing great. We are working with him about inside voices and using your words to ask for what you want.
R wishes she could go to school but she stays home with dad, mom and JM. She is wanting to wear dresses all the time and is Princess Anneliese.
JM is a love bug right now and wants someone to hold him and be with him all the time. He will take dad, mom, J or G. But he perfuse dad to anyone. They are all growing up too fast.
We will be adding a new addition to our family in February of 2009. That will make six children and we were thinking that we might be done, but we now know that there is at least one more who needs to come to our home so one more

E was hired on at Halliburton the 1st of December so now he will be able to get the money needed to go to Nursing school but it will take 2 to 3 years to do so.

This is our life

2008-11-11T10:11:00.003-07:00

E left work at the end of May, and went to EMT school. He did great. He was top in his class and did so good on all his work. He became certified in early September. He hasn't been able to find a job in that field and has decided to go to Nursing school. Now he is in the process of finding a job so we can save money so he can go to school and not have to work, since we have been told that it is hard and you can't do both. I just don't understand why no one has hired him yet. He is a very hard worker and learns fast and is honest and dependable. He has been working on the house for the last few months and it is looking beautiful. We just need to do the finish work. E says that always takes the longest to do.

He is at another interview right now, I hope that this one turns out different then the another ones have.

We are still alive!

2008-03-20T16:47:00.004-06:00

The time has marched on and we have been busy doing everything and nothing. We have mostly had sick kids off and on for the last 3 months. It is starting to get old!

R spent some time in the Hospital for an agressive infection, but is doing much better. L and G have had a cough or runny nose or a slite fever or a combo of them for the last two months. JM has had a runny nose for about a week and I don't want him to get sick since he is only 7 months old.

The cough and nose have final hit E and I, and we are trying to fight it tooth and nail.

My brother and his wife just had their first baby and I was the second coach. She did great. She was so focused on all the right things and did a great job. their baby is a boy and he is so wonderful and sweet and of course cute!
I was glad to be there I learned so much and if we have any more I know I will make sure I write a birth plan and that way what I want I will get. I had no idea that you can ask for it to stay quiet and that they would really do that. I have asked for those things but not really gotten them and I will take a birthing class because they are teaching some really great stuff. IT is very different from what I learned 13 years ago.

Well I better go and cook dinner so I am off.

This is our life right now!

2007-12-19T15:11:00.001-07:00

This was what our house looked like when we bought it. We then enclosed the garage. We did the work and gave ourselves more room, but it wasn't enough.

We have been working on our house. We have had some help (we hired a contractor for the new addition), but we have done all the window and the roof (it is blue) and we are working on the siding. I hope that the weather will be nice for us. It has been snowing off and on since we got the siding. I am hoping that with the two weeks that my husband has off that we will be able to get the siding done. So now our house has 4 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, a family room, an office, a pantry, dinning room, kitchen and living room. We also have a new heating and cooling system and hot water on demand. We still need to build the new laundry room so I can get it out of my kitchen. I don't get any of my window sills until after the New Year.

Is'nt he so cute!

2007-12-19T15:01:00.000-07:00

This is our baby. He is 3 and 1/2 months old isn't he cute! He wants to sit up, straight up, all the time. He wants someone to talk to and he has two looks all smiles or oh so serious.

Baby Blessing and the blessing of Family

2007-10-15T18:48:00.000-06:00

We blessed our little baby yesterday

We had some of our family here with us. The kids got to spent a week with grandma from Canada and 3 days with papa.

We had a diner for 30 at our house with friends and family it was great. I am going to miss grandmas help. I was really enjoying the fact that I didn't have to worry about the little baby. She was tacking care of him and playing with the other kids and everyone was having fun!

Life with 5 kids, I hope I can get this right!

2007-09-06T10:50:00.000-06:00

I am having a hard time trying to divide my time with all my kids. G, L, and R all want to hold the baby all the time, but they also want mom to sit on the couch and let they sit, crawl, play, or whatever they feel like with me. My house is a mess and we have an appraiser coming, as we are just going to refinance the house and add on (that's one thing that I don't have to figure out *big sigh*).
I can tell I am getting older. It is hard trying to care for a 4 year, 2 year ,1 year ,and 2 week old. G has pre K in the after noons and that isn't the easiest thing to do. We have to sign her in and out every day, I was hoping that when J was here that she could pick her up but no. At least when she is I can run by my self to pick her up (it now takes me about 20 to 30 minutes to get everyone ready and in the car).
My love is working anything from 16 to 48 hour at a time, so in some ways I feel like a single mom again, I just don't have to go to a "real job" and pit my kids in day orphanage (I am ever so grateful for that.) I miss my love though and the kids miss dad too.
I have bought some books on how to be a better nicer parent and wife, I am just waiting for them. I hope that i can get some good info to help me to be better and USE that info to help make myself a better person.
Well I have to start lunch and get G hair done for school. I hope that you all are having great days!

Our Little baby boy!

2007-09-04T14:29:00.001-06:00

Please welcome J M his was born Augest 21 at 1:24 pm and weighs 6lb 6.1oz and is 19 inchs long

R just loves her little brother!

This summer with J

2007-07-25T08:57:00.000-06:00

Tomorrow I have to be up and out of the house with 3 kids (4, 2, 1 years old) no later then 6:00 am, so I can meet up with J's granny to take her to a Dr. appointment. This is one of those times when I wish my love have a normal job. You know like a 9 to 5 kind, oh well!
Then I need to meet back up with granny to give her back until Saturday, even though she is suppose to be home with us.
I planed this appointment 5 weeks ago and I told her Father about it, so he knew before he made the arrangements for her to go to his mothers and also knew that she was suppose to be back with us on Thursday morning. Why does he do things like this?
I am letting J go back with her granny because she would like to spend a few more days with her (if that was okay with me) so I said yes!
Granny is helping her make a dress and they have so much fun together. J looks forward to this time of the summer every year and it is the most fun she has when she is with her father.

J has been working for her fathers brother for the summer and getting paid pretty well. There is just one problem, the brothers live-in girlfriend decided that she would retain control of all her money so her parents don't steal it from her!
Who does this woman think she is and when was she given any kind of rights to my daughters life.
I have talked to her father and he said he would handle it. I hope so or I will have to and it wont be pretty. Things between the two families are doing good and I don't want to mess that up, but this woman can not and will not tell J how she can and can't send the money she has earned. The way she treats her isn't the greatest either and I don't think her father knows everything.
J is afraid of her father and that he will think she doesn't love him if she doesn't do what he thinks she should do and having a job for the summer is one of those things. Now understand that J is 11 years old.
Her father and his wife said she doesn't have to work she can go to this outside all day long day orphanage...I mean care place, but when J is out side too long in the heat she gets really bad nose bleeds and this place will not let her go inside and her father doesn't seem to think that there is any reason for her to be inside too. I am also not on any of the contact info this place has and his wife is J's mother according to them.

Now I don't like the whole step parent thing but she isn't J's only mom and she doesn't have the legal rights to be making decision on her behalf.
I would just like to be included since I am her mother.

Can we figured this out yet?

2007-07-19T15:21:00.000-06:00

My love and I keep thinking that we like where we live better then anything we look at so why not just all on! We have a fewpoelpe who say that we will never get our money out of this house if we do, but I don't care about that. I like my home and where it is and the yard. We look at a house and it is like we would do just as much work there as we would here, but be in debt at a higher level and I don't like the houses nearly as much. We really just need one more bedroom and some food storage, oh yeah and the washer and dryer out of my kitchen (I would like that.) So why not just add it on since we have the space and it will cost less then buying something else?
I would like my love to do it, I trust his work more then anyone elses, but he doesn't have the time so now I guess that I have to decide who I want working on my home. I do know two construction companies (my love worked for them both) that are very good and trust worthy at least the owners are but that was over 3 years ago and I do know who they have working for them now. I'm sure they are good people, but i want the owners to over see my home. I guess I just need to talk to them both find out which one can do it for less and how soon they can start.
Now do we refinance, take out a second, or wait till we have saved up enough to pay for it out right? This is where we have stopped! We are not sure what to do. What would you do?

Good Idea from Mejojac's Memos (Melissa's blog)

2007-07-13T11:44:00.000-06:00

So I was at Melissa's blog and that it where this list comes from. Thanks I think I really needed to be able to think about this and write it down!

5 things I hate to do but do any way!

1. Get my kids dressed they are going to be dirty, sticky, or naked in 5 minutes! But I do it anyway

2. Doing G’s hair. I brush it and put pretties in it and 2 minutes later you would think that she just got out of bed and I left the hair stuff in from the night before! (she has some natural wave and curl to her hair)

3. Laundry….I can get it all done, all put away and then someone gets dirty or My Love comes home from work…..it is never ending!

4. Coming up with new lunchs and diners…..no one ever has any ideas about what they would like, but complain about what I fix.

5. Cleaning house…..it only stays clean if I duck tape all the kids to the wall (just kidding)….it never stays clean!

5 things I love to do, but never get to do

1. Sleep……oh how I miss a good nights rest!

2. Flowers for weddings….no one in my family has gotten married in two years.

3. Go to the bathroom by myself.

4. Be organize…..it just doesn’t happen now with 4 kids

5. Read without interruption.

Just another Monday

2007-07-09T18:25:00.000-06:00

I spent about four hours in labor and delivery the other night. Contractions 3 minutes apart and we are 30 weeks along. They did slow down but still haven't stopped. We just need to make it 36 weeks and that will be great.
My Love is working every long days as in two or three at a time, I hate it. I want him to come home even if it is just to sleep for 6 hours before going out again. But they are working on a new well contract and it is much further from town (4 hours) so that make getting home a lot tougher when you still are spending a good 8-10 hour on site, oh ya and now the company doesn't allow driving from 11 pm to 5 am. That is why he gets stuck out there for days.
Well I guess I need to get my kids ready for bed if I would like to get to bed before 10 pm.

Happy 4th of July

2007-07-04T12:06:00.000-06:00

Well Happy 4th of July to every one. Our little town of Fruita does it’s fireworks on the 3rd and I watched them from my front door.

My Love has been at work for 32 hours now and I do not know when he will be home. I keep telling him that the money isn’t worth all the time he is gone (not like he is gone like this long all the time just once in a while.) But My Love is at work before the children are up and isn’t back home most of the time until they are already in bed, so they see dad on Sunday always and most Saturdays. I just don’t think the money is worth everything we are all missing out on.

The guys at work keep asking him how it is that we have the time to keep having kids? He tells them it is because he goes home when he is done with work. I can’t believe how many of them go hang out with each other after work.

My Love says that he will find a different job in 2008. I hope so, I miss him!

Not to Move!

2007-06-29T12:27:00.001-06:00

My Love and I have decided that we will stay where we are and make things work. We really don’t want any more debt and we are working hard to get out of debt. That means I have to unpack the house once again. It looks like we are moving there are boxes all over, some full, some empty, some somewhere in between.

I am also trying to get the baby stuff done since we have10 weeks left. I have the cradle in the house (I need to put it together), but all the baby bedding and clothing are still out side so I will see if My Love can bring then in when he get home form work sometime tomorrow.

I seem to get less done around her when J (11) is here. She spends half of her summer with her father and half with me. She works hard over there cleans and even has a job. I can’t seem to get her to even put her clothing in the hamper. Maybe I am too soft on her. Her father thinks that she is here slaving away and that we work her too hard, if he only knew what she really does! Most of the time G who is 4 is a much bigger and better help then J is.

Well I’ve got laundry to do unpacking to get done baby stuff to take care of and a house to clean so I better get to work!

Will you sell to Us?

2007-06-05T14:40:00.000-06:00

We found a house and some land that we really like. It is fsbo and the owner lives next door. We met with the Owner today and He said that they aren't sure they want to sell. I don't think they want to live next to a family with 5 children. They want us to contacted them in two weeks and they will give us an answer.

So I will sit at home and ask Heavenly Father to help this happen for us, if it is His will or if it is Okay if it is what we want! Does that even make sense? I hope so cause i know that sometime Heavenly Father doesn't give you a yes or no answer, it is up to us. well this is what we would like and we feel good about it to, so I will wait!

We found out that we are having a boy. He was on display, it was really hard to miss. My OBGYN said if it isn't I can have his two kids. I don't think I have to worry and neither does he. So that means that we will have 3 girls and 2 boys. I think that "mine son" needs a boy to play with. He will play with any male take comes to our door, including the washer repair guy.

To Move or Not To Move

2007-05-21T10:19:00.000-06:00

That is the ever present question at our house these days. We would like so more land as .21 of an acres just isn't enough for kids, toys, garden, fruit trees, shop, food storage...the toys are the kid's toys.
I have got to have a way to entertain then that does not include a TV. They love to go out side and play but our yard isn't fenced so I have to be out there with them, which means I get nothing done inside if I take them out side.
TO stay where we are we would need to add on which is cheaper then a bigger house with no yard which is what we have around here. A four bedroom house is between $300,000 to $550,000 with 25ft front yard 8ft side yards and if you are lucky 15ft back yard which is about .15 of an acre with a 2300sqft to 4000sqft house on them.
We could buy some land but everything that we want to afford had a Mobile home on it. We think that they are priced a little bit high for being a movable house and they are not as easy to add on to as a stick built. They are the same size as we are living in now just with land.
I am also trying to decide if I need to be concentrating more on food storage and less on land, I do not have any room here for food storage other then under bed and tops of closets that's not much.
So what do you do?

Long time no type

2007-04-11T15:47:00.000-06:00

I have been struggling with a few thing this last month. We were thinking of moving but we are just going to add on to our house. We are going to have a new addition to our family the beginning of September and we have waited to tell people cause I have miscarried before a few times. We are trying to find programs to put our kids in to help them learn and grow with out all the competition (does that even exist?)

So I have pack up my whole house this last month and tried to prepare myself to move (I have lived here for 18 years) Prepare myself for a new OBGYN and will they listen to me (I have a few problem giving birth) and just when I think I might be ready but I am very willing cause I think it is what my husband wants, he comes to me and tells me he doesn't really want to go but if I do he will. What!!! That is what I was doing, I thought that he wanted to go which I didn't understand cause he hates big city's and I hate the traffic. Well I am glad that we talk that one through before it was too late.

I thought that was had talked it through but the whole time he was telling me this is what I think we need to do he was saying that because he thought it was what I wanted (He loves me unconditionally)

My kids are all having horrible allergies this year even though most of them didn't have any last year that is just the way Colorado is. I have been sick almost this whole pregnancy , but my mom was sick for her last three (very brave woman) if that's the case with me this may be our last one.

I will try not to say away so long next time. Thank you for reading and for your friendship!

Now 3 kids are sick and I am too! but still a Happy Day

2007-03-05T14:35:00.000-07:00

Happy Day

2007-03-05T14:16:00.000-07:00

The laundry is almost all out of my living room and it is folded and put away. My living room is vacuumed, my kitchen is clean (thanks to my love) and I cleaned both bathrooms today. I decided that today was going to be a good day and that I would work at making it that way. I also decided I wasn't going to yell at my children (I did once when G who is 4 pee peed on the carpet), but it isn't really her fault it is mine for not listening to her we have kid proof door knobs so mine son (who's 2) can't get into rooms. I didn't stop what i was doing and listen to her she had to pee so she did. But other then that it is going good.
I am blessed my love works so hard at a job he doesn't really like to take care of us. He helps me out a lot more then I have given him credit for. He loves me unconditionally and I really mean that. In almost 6 years of marriage he has never ever put me down, never told me you are getting fat (I was 118 when we got married and now I am 160 plus I am only 5 feet tall so that is going from a size 6 to a 14for those who need a visual) Never complains about a house, the food in make the money spend (not that I go crazy I just pay all the bills and buy everything so he never see any money) The way I drive, nothing! Now that is unconditional love.
I need to learn to love him the same way! And I am working on it but I know it is going to take me a while cause I have got to work though and let go of some really bad hurt and hate. I will do it. He and I deserve that and so do our children!

Happy day to all of you who read my blog

This is life

2007-03-02T14:03:00.000-07:00

Well G and mine son are sick. They both have coughs and are a little warm. I hope that i can get them over it soon. So far Rose bud is okay (knocking on wood!) I have found that it is quite easy to make pizza crust which for me is good since G and mine son only like cheese pizza. This is so much more cost effective and it only takes 35 min. from start to sit down and eat. I still have a big pile of laundry in my living room and I am being lazy about doing it. I haven't gotten my kitchen all the way clean in about three months, but the dishes get done!
Well it sounds like Rose bud has woke up and I need to feed her so I will go for now! Hope ya'll are having fun filled kid days!

This is my day today

2007-02-27T16:11:00.000-07:00

My Rose bud was up from 1:00am to 5:00am this morning so I didn't get much sleep. I started my morning not happy, grumpy and very tired, but life gos on and I have to feed the children and do some laundry and try to get a nap in somehow. Mine son is such a card. He wants what he want and he wants it right now, except I can't always tell what he is saying nor do I think he always knows what he wants (which of course frustrates the both us us actually all four of us) He can be so sweet and loving but that is a once in a while thing. Most of the time he is upset screaming and crying about some thing. I hope that I am not a bad mom cause I don't like to hit and I think he has a hard time understanding time out (I need to find a better spot for that, his bed gives him the wrong idea when it is time for bed) I have friends who it seem that their children are mostly so sweet and behaved is it just their personality? I do believe that has a lot to do with it and what was Heavenly Father thinking giving me two possibly three (I don't know about Rose bud yet) children like that I have little patience although my mom would disagree with me there but I feel I am lacking. So I guess that mean I need to figure out how to change (I'm not good at change!!!) But my children need me to.

I am very lucky

2007-02-23T14:21:00.000-07:00

I have a wonderful man who loves me unconditionally and who supports me always. I have wonderful children even if they are not perfect. I am blessed with health, home, many many modern convinces.

I have just let the darkness into my self and I need to remove it so that I can enjoy all my many blessing to the best of my spiritual being. After all we are not human being having a spiritual experience. We are Spiritual being having a human experience. I just need to remember that and work harder on being a Spiritual being not a human being.

Lack of will power

2007-02-19T12:45:00.000-07:00

I tried very hard not to buy a lot of candy for valentines day cause I have no will power and will eat it all. I've done pretty good until today. I have had way too much chocolate today and now I feel sick, but for some reason I still want more. I have no motivation either, I know that I need to clean my house, I just don't. I look around and it feels over whelming and I get tried of having to do the same thing every day (didn't I just clean this!) and not having help. I'm not the one making all the mess so why am I the one who is always cleaning it up? I know I'm the mom but can't I get a little help please. My love lived in a mess growing up and says that I am not messy just cluttered and that it doesn't bother him. Maybe it my house ever since we moved in here I am having a hard time finding a place for everything and it is the biggest place we have lived. It also doesn't help that as soon as I get my youngest on a good schedule we find out another is on the way. I haven't gotten a good nights sleep in 5 years and I think it is starting to show.
DO I need some help to get organized from a pro? WILL I stay organized? All this thinking has made me tried

Home Made Cards

2007-02-16T10:47:00.000-07:00

My love made me two beautiful cards one for my birthday and one for valentines day. They are something that I really want and need. The things that he writes are just what I need to know and they are so wonderful. I am very lucky to have someone who will take the tine to sit down and make me something from the heart and that is what I truly truly wanted for my birthday. Thank you my love thank you.

Here come the day of Love

2007-02-12T09:54:00.000-07:00

Well Valentine's Day will be here this week and so will my birthday on the same day. We'll see if my love will do anything this year or not like it has been for the last 4 years. Dropping hints doesn't work flat out telling him what I want doesn't work, I don't know what does. One year I went out and bought what I wanted cause that was the only way I was going to receive it well I didn't like that at all. If I am going to do that why give it to myself for my birthday? Maybe I should not do anything for anyone in my family, but why should my children suffer? I guess I should just accept that I will not get anything from my love for any holiday and that that is just how it is, I should get over it, right?

Frustrated

2007-02-07T18:40:00.000-07:00

Some times I feel like there is so much that I need to do and learn and I know that I have been taking the easy way out. I'm to busy or I don't have time, whatever excuse works for me at the time. I think it is just that I have gotten lazy very lazy. I need to get out of this state of mind for some very good reasons. My family, my health, my sanity and my marriage. My family deserves better much better especial from me. Why do I always give my best to those who matter least, my family deserves my best and so do I. Sitting around watching my children grow and doing the least in my home isn't do my health any good nor my back side either. I am starting to feel like my junk owns me and I hate that feeling, I just don't seen to know what to do with the stuff I have to have. I'm not happy with myself so that means that my love shouldn't be either, but he is, witch is frustrating in some ways. I am so blessed to have my love and my children.

What has happened?

2007-02-03T12:56:00.000-07:00

I use to be a neat clean and orgenized person. Now I can't seem to complete a task. I am not orgenized in anyway and my house is far from clean. I know I have more kids now and that three of them are under the age of four but I should be doing so such better then this.
How do I change? How do I get beck to being that person that I was just a few years ago? Any advice? Help? PLEASE!

2007-02-02T00:52:00.000-07:00

Have you ever had one of those days?

BMW and green jello

2007-01-31T23:46:00.000-07:00

How many of you are the proud owners of Big Mormon Wagons?
Well I am.

Did you know that Utah sells more green jello then any other state?